Im in love with the Veterinarian

Met a new veterinarian today.  I don't know what it was about him but I can't stop thinking about him.  I am not happy in my relationship.  I haven't been for years. I stay because it is easy and convenient, but it is sucking the life out of me. 
I didn't notice any anxiety today until the kids came home. Why is it impossible for the after school routine to go normal for once?
Why is it impossible for sperm done #3 to put his son to bed without being a complete ass and making him cry?
Parenting is really hard with multiple kids and little to help. Now youngest is in bed next to me driving me nuts.

Setbacks

I got my kitchen all cleaned out. It was driving me crazy with too much of everything.  That is what happens when you combine 2 households.
I'm in a terrible mood still. Things happening with middle sons father. He lies and doesn't obey the agreement we made in court. I'm calling attorney tomorrow. 
I have been so mad today that it took considerable effort to not lose it.  And by lose it I mean screaming, throwing things, crying, etc. Rage is a good word for describing it. Thoughts race through my head like packing up and moving away. I HATE this situation I am in. I feel completely powerless.